Woman Crush Wednesday

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Meet Ashley! This incredible woman knows how much I think of her and how much I love her but she’s such a gem that I also want you guys to know!

Ashley is so glam, her wardrobe is to die for and her hair is out of this world! She has worked so hard to get an absolutely banging body. She loves cats and mermaids so that makes her a babe straight away but thats not the main reason that I love Ashley.

The main reason is that she is so real. She is a warrior. She is a lioness. She has fought with anxiety and some real hard struggles but she is getting better.  She doesn’t have far to go now and I am so bloody proud of her!

Ashley recently got a new job, a job which I personally thing is very suited to her and her personality.  I honestly think that being in a new environment will help Ashley see how wonderful she really is.

You can follow Ashley on Instagram by clicking here.

“Life is tough my Darling, but so are you”

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A story I want to tell

This may seem like a mood killer post but it’s how I’m feeling a kind of way right now and I want to write. This is about when I lost my mum, so if you don’t want to read this you dont have to but I need to tell my story, and I don’t think many people know this story. 

Let me start from the beginning, it was 2005, I was 13 and my mum and dad were being a bit weird. They called me into my little sisters room, and sat us both on the bed. They stood in front of us with this worried look on their faces. All I could think is ‘what have I done now?’ Then my mum crouched down our level, looked at us both and said, ‘I have Cancer’. I just sat there and stared at her for what felt like an hour but was really about a minute. I was in shock. Then the tears came, I would not stop crying. I didn’t even really know what the effects of cancer were but I know that people died from it and that was enough information for me.

My little sister didn’t cry, I don’t remember how she reacted because I was in shock but I know that she didn’t shed one tear that night, she was so young at 10 years old so she didn’t fully understand.

My mum asked why I was crying and I remember saying to her ‘are you going to die?’ which she replied ‘I promise you I will be fine’.

We carried on with our lives as normal, with the added hospital trip so mum could have Chemo. Anna and dad would go with her but I would always stay home. There were a few times that she was taken into hospital because things got a little bad but she soon came out.

We got through christmas that year and new year. Mum got involved as much as she could but she was very weak.

I went to Germany on a school trip and when I returned home I gave my mum a post card of Berlin which supposedly had a piece of the ‘real’ Berlin wall. We spent a few days together at home before I went back to school. We argued a lot in those few days, I’m not sure what over, probably something so small and silly. Something so irrelevant.

My sister and I came home from our first day back at school and my auntie was in my house, she told us that mum was taken into hospital again and she was there to look after us.

Dad came home later that night and he was alone, mum had to stay in the hospital. Time went on, I’m not sure how much time, but it left like weeks and mum never came out. My dad and my sister would go and visit her but I would always stay at home. Me and my dad would have massive arguments over it. I didn’t want to see my mum in hospital with tubes down her throat and hooked up to machines, but he knew it was important that I saw her.

A little while after my dad came home from the hospital one day and was very stressed but said mum was getting a little better. That night we got a phone call, I answered the phone and it was the hospital, they wanted to speak to my dad. Something was wrong and he went back down to the hospital. This hadn’t happened before, he had never rushed out to the hospital like that.

My little sister and I were left at home for a couple of hours then a couple of family friends walked though the back door of our house and told us to put a coat on and get in the car, I could tell that they had been crying. I don’t remember the car journey to the hospital, I do remember it was very quiet though, nobody spoke a word.

When we arrived on the ward that my mum was on we were taken into a room at the end of the ward, I remember looking around for my mum but I couldn’t see her.

The next part I remember so clearly, one of the family friends took us into the room where my dad was. I remember my dads face, his eyes were red and puffy, he had clearly been crying a lot and he was shaking so much. There were two grey hospital sofas in this room. We all sat down and that’s when he told us that our mum wasn’t going to make it through the week and we needed to say our goodbyes.

The next few days were so hard. Mum had been moved into a more private room and the limit on visitors was lifted. She always had loads of people around her and I know she would have been happy knowing everyone was there. My mum wasn’t asleep or anything like that, she was paralysed but she could move her eyes. So she saw us all there with her.

My dad was there 24/7 and my sister and I would be there every day but would sleep at home. Then there was one day that the whole family was there and all her close friends. Mother’s day was coming up so my sister wanted to read her the mother’s day card that we had got for her. Everyone left the room giving myself, my sister and my mum some time alone.

I couldn’t tell you a word that was in that card. The entire time my sister was reading I was just staring at my mum. She was laying there still, her eyes open. Then I saw the corners on her mouth turn up slightly forming a little smile on her face. Soon after followed her tears. I wiped them away for her and grabbed hold of her hand. How had my mum got like this? It was heartbreaking.

We said goodnight to her like we did every night, told her we loved her and then we went home for the night.

The next morning I got up first and went down stairs, I saw all my family and family friends in the lounge, said Good Morning to them and then continued into the kitchen. I knew it then, I knew she had passed away.  I had lost my mum forever.

I didn’t need anyone to confirm it to me because the whole family sitting in my lounge crying was conformation enough but my aunt came out to see me and actually tell me. I didn’t really react. I just walked up stairs into my dads room, he was laying in bed sobbing, I have never seen anyone so heart-broken in all my life. I got in next to his and we just cuddled and cried. Someone must have gone and woken up my little sister because about 5 minutes later she ran through the door in hysterics. It was then that I realised I needed to be brave and try to get them both through this.

I was devastated don’t get me wrong but something clicked in me, it was just what I thought was right or possibly my way of coping and I just left the room went and got my self dressed and went to the Nursery where I was doing my work experience that day. When they found out what had happened they sent me home of course but I felt like I needed to get on with my day and not cry.

I will end that there but I will go on to what happened after with me in another post. I’m not writing this for sympathy of anything like that, I know im not the only person that has been through this. It’s simply something that I think about a lot and just wanted to write it down.

Thanks for reading and your ongoing support! 

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Woman Crush Wednesday

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Meet Kerri! I used to work with Kerri back when she was a single lady. I remember when she was asking for advice for her date with a guy and now his her HUSBAND and they have a little pup!

This lovely lady has been through some things that no woman should ever have to go through, she has been so strong and fought so much. Yes she has a down day but everyone does but she always picks herself back up again and continues to fight!

I think that everyone should be a little more like Kerri, never give up on what you want. God gives you these battles because he knows that you are a warrior and are capable over fighting them so succeed.

You can follow Kerri on her own blog kerridiary.blogspot.co.uk or follow her on Instagram 

“A lot of people give up just before they’re about to make it. You know you never know when that next obstacle is going to be the last one.” – Chuck Norris

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Woman Crush Wednesday

This is my first Woman Crush Wednesday on EforElle and I have an incredible lady for you today!

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I’ve known Danielle for about 7 years know and when we met she had pink hair! She is an incredible woman!

Danielle has worked so hard and has achieved so much that most don’t achieve in their 20’s. She works a job and has her own company where she makes and sells her hand made cross stitches you can buy these at www.crossstitchyoursoul.bigcartel.com.

She is covered in some of the most beautiful art work! Oh, and her bloody make up is a work of art too!

Danielle is a cat lover, well actually she’s an animal lover and a Vegan. She is a firm believer in equal rights and is strong minded when it comes to these subjects. She knows what she is talking about!

Danielle Keens you are divine and this is why you are my first WCW!

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Follow Danielle on Instagram!

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I’m Back!

Guys, I’m back! I’m sorry its been so long. I have been having a bit of a revamp on the layout. Do you like it?

So I’ve decided to bring back monthly favourites. It will start at the end of this month, which is super exciting I have loads of new bits that I want to share with you all.

Also I will be doing WCW also known as Woman Crush Wednesday, where each Wednesday I will pick a lady that I think is beautiful, inspirational or strong women. If you think there is someone that should be chosen then write a comment on their picture with #EforelleWCW!

Im not going to have set days that i post other than Wednesdays, simply because i have a job and sometimes find it hard to post by certain days. I promise that I will try my very hardest to get at least one post up a week for you.

Thanks for understanding guys!

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Summer Reading List

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One of my favourite things to do in the summer is to grab a good book and have a lazy day in the garden. I just spend my day getting lost in a novel that helps me escape from reality for a little while. If you like reading too I have listed a few of my favourites, some are newer and others are old classics. Enjoy!

Oh and at the end there is a printable reading challenge.

  1. The Great Gatsby – F. Scott Fitzgerald

  2. All About Love – Bell Hooks

  3. Geek Love – Katherine Dunn

  4.  Lolita – Vladimir Nabokov

  5. The Fault in Our Stars – John Green

  6. The Notebook – Nicholas Sparks

  7. Eleanor & Park – Rainbow Rowell

  8. Water for Elephants – Sara Gruen

  9. Jane Eyre – Charlotte Brontè

  10. Uprooted – Naomi Novik

 

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Hope you have a lovely summer

 

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Going Grey

Grey hair is a big trend right now and it is something that I wanted to get involved in. So I got in touch with the Daniel Miles the Owner of Salon 9 in Elm Park Essex and we booked a whole day to take me from my built up black/brown to a sexy silver-grey!

I went into Salon 9 with a mess on my head! I had been growing out my black hair for a few months and it was starting to look a right state. Black is one of those colours that you have to be sure on because so bloody hard to get rid of. Clearly I wasn’t sure on the black, so i decided to grow it out.

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All the light brown towards my root was my natural colour and all the dark brown on the ends was a faded black that I had put on my hair. So to remove the black Daniel had to first strip the colour. The colour stripper will remove some of the dye without damaging my hair. It is applied to all the hair with dye on it and left for it to work its magic.

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This process worked pretty well so we decided that the one application was fine and we would go ahead and bleach my hair to lighten it some more. Before I dyed my hair black I have a black into green ombré and where the colour had been stripped out the green started to appear again.

 

The bleach was applied onto foils to ensure that it didn’t touch my scalp. It was applied all over my hair but just a little bit of my root was left bare. This didn’t matter because we had decided that a darker shadowed root would be the best look for the shade of grey I had chosen. Once the bleach was applied I was put under heat to help the process along.

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Its rather obvious that my hair was blonde and orange!! It was to be expected as I had a slight colour build up. Bleach can really damage your hair but my hair was doing okay, it was a little damaged on the ends but nothing too bad.

We did a second application on bleach to lighten it a bit more (im sorry I forgot to take another photo) and after the entire bleaching process was over we cut a lot of my hair off just because it was a bit damaged from the bleach and it was going to have a whole new style anyway.

Once it was cut the grey was applied and I was put back under heat. Onced my hair was washed for the final time it was blowdryed and styled.

 

The full process took 10 hours, but I am so happy that it was all done in a day! I would like to say a massive Thank You to Daniel Miles and the team at Salon 9 for making my hair to beautiful!

 

To visit Salon 9’s Instagram page click here

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