Woman Crush Wednesday

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Meet Ashley! This incredible woman knows how much I think of her and how much I love her but she’s such a gem that I also want you guys to know!

Ashley is so glam, her wardrobe is to die for and her hair is out of this world! She has worked so hard to get an absolutely banging body. She loves cats and mermaids so that makes her a babe straight away but thats not the main reason that I love Ashley.

The main reason is that she is so real. She is a warrior. She is a lioness. She has fought with anxiety and some real hard struggles but she is getting better.  She doesn’t have far to go now and I am so bloody proud of her!

Ashley recently got a new job, a job which I personally thing is very suited to her and her personality.  I honestly think that being in a new environment will help Ashley see how wonderful she really is.

You can follow Ashley on Instagram by clicking here.

“Life is tough my Darling, but so are you”

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A story I want to tell

This may seem like a mood killer post but it’s how I’m feeling a kind of way right now and I want to write. This is about when I lost my mum, so if you don’t want to read this you dont have to but I need to tell my story, and I don’t think many people know this story. 

Let me start from the beginning, it was 2005, I was 13 and my mum and dad were being a bit weird. They called me into my little sisters room, and sat us both on the bed. They stood in front of us with this worried look on their faces. All I could think is ‘what have I done now?’ Then my mum crouched down our level, looked at us both and said, ‘I have Cancer’. I just sat there and stared at her for what felt like an hour but was really about a minute. I was in shock. Then the tears came, I would not stop crying. I didn’t even really know what the effects of cancer were but I know that people died from it and that was enough information for me.

My little sister didn’t cry, I don’t remember how she reacted because I was in shock but I know that she didn’t shed one tear that night, she was so young at 10 years old so she didn’t fully understand.

My mum asked why I was crying and I remember saying to her ‘are you going to die?’ which she replied ‘I promise you I will be fine’.

We carried on with our lives as normal, with the added hospital trip so mum could have Chemo. Anna and dad would go with her but I would always stay home. There were a few times that she was taken into hospital because things got a little bad but she soon came out.

We got through christmas that year and new year. Mum got involved as much as she could but she was very weak.

I went to Germany on a school trip and when I returned home I gave my mum a post card of Berlin which supposedly had a piece of the ‘real’ Berlin wall. We spent a few days together at home before I went back to school. We argued a lot in those few days, I’m not sure what over, probably something so small and silly. Something so irrelevant.

My sister and I came home from our first day back at school and my auntie was in my house, she told us that mum was taken into hospital again and she was there to look after us.

Dad came home later that night and he was alone, mum had to stay in the hospital. Time went on, I’m not sure how much time, but it left like weeks and mum never came out. My dad and my sister would go and visit her but I would always stay at home. Me and my dad would have massive arguments over it. I didn’t want to see my mum in hospital with tubes down her throat and hooked up to machines, but he knew it was important that I saw her.

A little while after my dad came home from the hospital one day and was very stressed but said mum was getting a little better. That night we got a phone call, I answered the phone and it was the hospital, they wanted to speak to my dad. Something was wrong and he went back down to the hospital. This hadn’t happened before, he had never rushed out to the hospital like that.

My little sister and I were left at home for a couple of hours then a couple of family friends walked though the back door of our house and told us to put a coat on and get in the car, I could tell that they had been crying. I don’t remember the car journey to the hospital, I do remember it was very quiet though, nobody spoke a word.

When we arrived on the ward that my mum was on we were taken into a room at the end of the ward, I remember looking around for my mum but I couldn’t see her.

The next part I remember so clearly, one of the family friends took us into the room where my dad was. I remember my dads face, his eyes were red and puffy, he had clearly been crying a lot and he was shaking so much. There were two grey hospital sofas in this room. We all sat down and that’s when he told us that our mum wasn’t going to make it through the week and we needed to say our goodbyes.

The next few days were so hard. Mum had been moved into a more private room and the limit on visitors was lifted. She always had loads of people around her and I know she would have been happy knowing everyone was there. My mum wasn’t asleep or anything like that, she was paralysed but she could move her eyes. So she saw us all there with her.

My dad was there 24/7 and my sister and I would be there every day but would sleep at home. Then there was one day that the whole family was there and all her close friends. Mother’s day was coming up so my sister wanted to read her the mother’s day card that we had got for her. Everyone left the room giving myself, my sister and my mum some time alone.

I couldn’t tell you a word that was in that card. The entire time my sister was reading I was just staring at my mum. She was laying there still, her eyes open. Then I saw the corners on her mouth turn up slightly forming a little smile on her face. Soon after followed her tears. I wiped them away for her and grabbed hold of her hand. How had my mum got like this? It was heartbreaking.

We said goodnight to her like we did every night, told her we loved her and then we went home for the night.

The next morning I got up first and went down stairs, I saw all my family and family friends in the lounge, said Good Morning to them and then continued into the kitchen. I knew it then, I knew she had passed away.  I had lost my mum forever.

I didn’t need anyone to confirm it to me because the whole family sitting in my lounge crying was conformation enough but my aunt came out to see me and actually tell me. I didn’t really react. I just walked up stairs into my dads room, he was laying in bed sobbing, I have never seen anyone so heart-broken in all my life. I got in next to his and we just cuddled and cried. Someone must have gone and woken up my little sister because about 5 minutes later she ran through the door in hysterics. It was then that I realised I needed to be brave and try to get them both through this.

I was devastated don’t get me wrong but something clicked in me, it was just what I thought was right or possibly my way of coping and I just left the room went and got my self dressed and went to the Nursery where I was doing my work experience that day. When they found out what had happened they sent me home of course but I felt like I needed to get on with my day and not cry.

I will end that there but I will go on to what happened after with me in another post. I’m not writing this for sympathy of anything like that, I know im not the only person that has been through this. It’s simply something that I think about a lot and just wanted to write it down.

Thanks for reading and your ongoing support! 

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Woman Crush Wednesday

This is my first Woman Crush Wednesday on EforElle and I have an incredible lady for you today!

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I’ve known Danielle for about 7 years know and when we met she had pink hair! She is an incredible woman!

Danielle has worked so hard and has achieved so much that most don’t achieve in their 20’s. She works a job and has her own company where she makes and sells her hand made cross stitches you can buy these at www.crossstitchyoursoul.bigcartel.com.

She is covered in some of the most beautiful art work! Oh, and her bloody make up is a work of art too!

Danielle is a cat lover, well actually she’s an animal lover and a Vegan. She is a firm believer in equal rights and is strong minded when it comes to these subjects. She knows what she is talking about!

Danielle Keens you are divine and this is why you are my first WCW!

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Become a Morning Person

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If you know me then you know I have never really been a morning person. Getting up before 9am was never going to happen. No way, no how! Hearing my Sister get up at 7.30am on the weekends used to baffle me. I always went to bed at 3am. It was just the way I lived, and I didn’t mind it.

The earliest that I ever had to start work was 12pm so I always had a couple of hours in the morning to get a few jobs done around the house. When the hours at work changed I knew that some days I would have to be up at 6.30! It was only the weekends that I had to be up earlier and I figured that would be fine, it wasn’t. My routine Monday – Friday was to go to sleep when I wanted and to get up around 9am like I had been doing for years but when it came to the weekend my body struggled because 6.30am was not part of the routine.

Thats when I realised I would have to make 6.30am my EVERYDAY routine time to rise and shine.

Becoming a morning person has changed my life. I am more productive.  I found that I was able to get most of my work around the house done in the morning, giving me the rest of the day to write blog posts, hang out with my friends (which I never got to do very much before) and I leave myself enough time to get to work.

If you want to become a morning person then let me give you a little guidance. Anybody can become a morning person with just a few changes and a little patience because the transition from a night owl to morning person doesn’t happen instantly.

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Step 1 – Changing your bed time

This isn’t going to be a drastic as you may think. Im going to explain how this works on the basis of the hours I used to go to sleep. So my normal bed time was 3am, the idea is to take of half an hour and do that for a week and then another half an hour and do that for a week, so on and so forth until you have reached the appropriate bed time, which in my case is 9 am. The first week I made it 2.30am, then 2am, the third week was 1.30 am. I think you get the picture. There are going to be days when it’s not possible to get to bed at 9am, I know that but for the most part this will be your routine.

Step 2 – Having a night time routine

Your body may find it a struggle to get to sleep earlier but there are a few things that you can do to help yourself relax before bed.

  • Turn off electronics at least 1 hour before bed, they keep the mind active (mobiles, consoles, TVs)
  • Listen to calming music (I like to listen to Yiruma piano music)
  • Meditate
  • Have a bath
  • Have a cup of decaf or herbal tea
  • Read a book for 30 minutes

You must try and do as many of these as you possibly can. It is so important to relax your mind.20663fbf0984e70ac4cb43f4affd1423_Fotor

Step 3 – Take on the morning

The most important rule here is to not hit snooze. If you are guilty of doing this then when you put you mobile away before bed just set one alarm but place your phone across the other side of the room, then you have to get out of bed to turn it off. Hopefully over time your body clock will get a re-jig and you will be able to join the 1 in 5 people who let their body naturally wake them up on time.

Alarms are never really a good thing because they sometimes force you out of a deep sleep and you’re not meant to wake up from a deep sleep,  you’re supposed to pass to the lighter preparation stage first, then open your eyes. Hitting the snooze button is also a big no no for this reason too because you keep entering a deep sleep and then forcing yourself back out of it. Doing this over and over is what causes you to feel grouchy.

Step 4 – Have a morning routine

Just like you have when you prepare for bed, a morning routine is just as important. It is vital that you give yourself enough time to adjust properly. When you’re asleep at night, all sorts of things are happening, your body temperature starts to fall and your blood pressure goes down. When you wake up your body has to recognise the time.When you get up, you stand upright and you’re much more active, so your heart, and everything else, just has to work that little bit harder. It takes time for your body to get ready for that change.

I leave my phone across the room still just to be careful, once i have got up to turn it off I open my blinds and sit back on my bed. I take it 3 deep breaths and let my body and eyes adjust to the light. I take a bottle of water to bed with my and in the morning I always take a massive gulp to hydrate. I keep a dream journal which I write in every morning, you can get the same one here. This gets my brain working.

I go down stairs and make a green tea or coffee, which ever I fancy that day and some breakfast. I NEVER EAT BREAKFAST IN BED. I was always told you should always eat your meals at a table, it helps your body digest.

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After breakfast I pop back upstairs to the bath room where carry out my morning skin care routine. (I may do a post on that soon, let me know below if thats something you would like to read/see). Once that is complete I head back into my room and make my bed. Making your bed is a MUST, it stops you wanting to get in it as much.

Step 5 – Exercise

Now this step might not be for everyone, some people may not like to exercise others may have their own routine/times to work out but studies have proven that exercising in the AM is one of the most effective ways to wake your brain up. In addition, those endorphins will give you a jumpstart to your day. After a morning workout I always feel refreshed, happy, and ready to tackle my day.  Just 15 minutes of yoga or some stretches will do the job or if you really want to get those juices flowing go for a run, there aren’t many people out running this early so it will be peaceful.

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Step 6 – Be motivated

Make sure you stick to it, even on your days off. It’s hard to get up in the morning when you have nothing to get up for. Make plans for each day, I have an Erin Condren life planner and I put in there everything I want to or need to get done for the day. Remember to live your life and be the best version of yourself.

Thank you for reading


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Rose Bombshell (New Edition)

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If you used LUSH products last Mother’s Day  you may have noticed that this bath bomb has changed. It has the same name but the bomb its self and the concept has changed completely ! I don’t mind change really,  but this I wasn’t a fan of. But I wanted to separate the two and kind of treat this as a new bath bomb rather than an ‘improved’ bath bomb.

The bath bomb to look at is pretty, not the best. The scent on the other hand is one of my favourites from LUSH and it’s the famous Rose Jam scent!

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The issue I have with this product is that theres not much to it. The main colour is pink and the centre holds a small amount of turquoise. It dissolves extremely fast ad in the centre are what LUSH call ‘Yellow rose petals’, they may very well be but they honestly look like dead rose petals. The colours of the bath bomb once merged create a dusky pink/peach with it pretty but doesn’t really POP. That dusky colour assisted by a few dead looking petals just didn’t make me feel great in that bath.

Overall I didn’t think this was a great product from lush. The scent was amazing, but I know that I can find that same scent in the other Ro’s Argon family products so I will probably stick to them.

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Also, the pink colouring left a pink ring around my bath which I really had to scrub to remove.

Quantitative Ingredients: Sodium Bicarbonate, Citric Acid, Fine Sea Salt, Yellow Rose Petals, Rose Absolute, Geranium Oil, Rose Oil, Sicilian Lemon Oil, *Limonene, Citronellol, Coumarin, Perfume, Frosty Holly Lustre, Colour 17200, Colour 45410.

Price: £3.95

Rating: ★★

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Valentines Gifts

Roses and chocolates are not all that is on the market for Valentine’s Day. Surprise your loved one with something a little more unique. As Valentine’s Day is just around the corner and a lot of you don’t have time to find something I thought i would do all the hard work for you. I have found 10 of the best valentines gifts.

Typographic Story Of Us Print from Notonthehighstreet.com £30

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Personalised Message In A Bottle from Prezzybox.com £9.95

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Prince Charming Shower Gel from Lush.com 250g £9.75

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Kate Spade His & Hers luggage tags from JohnLewis.com £22

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Emma Bridgewater Mr & Mrs Mugs from JohnLewis.com £39.95

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Letters to My Love Book from UrbanOutfitters.com £10.99

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Peanuts Guide to Love book from UrbanOutfitters.com £7.99

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Retro Mini Digital Radio from JohnLewis.com £79.95

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Personalised Map Location Heart Print from notonthehighstreet.com $47

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Personalised Keepsake Box from notonthehighstreet.com £39.95

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I hope this helps all you love birds out there. Let me know in the comments what your favourite gift for valentines was.

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Lush Lord of Misrule Review

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Im back with another Lush Cosmetics review and this time its Halloween themed!

Originally released in 2013 Lord of Misrule is a bath bomb that has been brought back this Halloween by Lush Cosmetics. The Pagan Feast of Fools themed bath bomb Lush say to  ‘Revel in your bath with this mischievous bomb that features a spicy herbal blend of patchouli and black pepper oil.’

I couldn’t imagine disliking this bath bomb. The patchouli coupled with the intriguing addition of black pepper oil. The inside of this deep shamrock green goodness is a beautiful wine colour and POPPING CANDY! (You all know I love popping candy in my bath)

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The bath bomb had an earth aroma with notes of vanilla which linger in you bath for ages! To me, the scent is reminiscent of Twilight and bath bomb but with a peppery twist. 

This one has a lot of froth and it is absolutely beautiful when the colours swirl together.
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My skin felt super soft after my bath and  the smell stayed on my skin for hours. I felt completely relaxed from this bath bomb, the black pepper was a nice touch!

This has become one of my favourite ever bath bombs from Lush. I highly recommend that you grab yourself one(or as many as you can fit in your bag!)

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Quantitative Ingredients: Sodium Bicarbonate, Citric Acid, Popping Candy, Cream of Tartar, Black Pepper Oil, Patchouli Oil, Fair Trade Vanilla Absolute, Lauryl Betaine, Sodium Laureth Sulfate, Gardenia Extract, *Limonene, Perfume, Colour 17200, Colour 42090, Colour 19140.

Price (in 2015): £3.95

Rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

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