A story I want to tell

This may seem like a mood killer post but it’s how I’m feeling a kind of way right now and I want to write. This is about when I lost my mum, so if you don’t want to read this you dont have to but I need to tell my story, and I don’t think many people know this story. 

Let me start from the beginning, it was 2005, I was 13 and my mum and dad were being a bit weird. They called me into my little sisters room, and sat us both on the bed. They stood in front of us with this worried look on their faces. All I could think is ‘what have I done now?’ Then my mum crouched down our level, looked at us both and said, ‘I have Cancer’. I just sat there and stared at her for what felt like an hour but was really about a minute. I was in shock. Then the tears came, I would not stop crying. I didn’t even really know what the effects of cancer were but I know that people died from it and that was enough information for me.

My little sister didn’t cry, I don’t remember how she reacted because I was in shock but I know that she didn’t shed one tear that night, she was so young at 10 years old so she didn’t fully understand.

My mum asked why I was crying and I remember saying to her ‘are you going to die?’ which she replied ‘I promise you I will be fine’.

We carried on with our lives as normal, with the added hospital trip so mum could have Chemo. Anna and dad would go with her but I would always stay home. There were a few times that she was taken into hospital because things got a little bad but she soon came out.

We got through christmas that year and new year. Mum got involved as much as she could but she was very weak.

I went to Germany on a school trip and when I returned home I gave my mum a post card of Berlin which supposedly had a piece of the ‘real’ Berlin wall. We spent a few days together at home before I went back to school. We argued a lot in those few days, I’m not sure what over, probably something so small and silly. Something so irrelevant.

My sister and I came home from our first day back at school and my auntie was in my house, she told us that mum was taken into hospital again and she was there to look after us.

Dad came home later that night and he was alone, mum had to stay in the hospital. Time went on, I’m not sure how much time, but it left like weeks and mum never came out. My dad and my sister would go and visit her but I would always stay at home. Me and my dad would have massive arguments over it. I didn’t want to see my mum in hospital with tubes down her throat and hooked up to machines, but he knew it was important that I saw her.

A little while after my dad came home from the hospital one day and was very stressed but said mum was getting a little better. That night we got a phone call, I answered the phone and it was the hospital, they wanted to speak to my dad. Something was wrong and he went back down to the hospital. This hadn’t happened before, he had never rushed out to the hospital like that.

My little sister and I were left at home for a couple of hours then a couple of family friends walked though the back door of our house and told us to put a coat on and get in the car, I could tell that they had been crying. I don’t remember the car journey to the hospital, I do remember it was very quiet though, nobody spoke a word.

When we arrived on the ward that my mum was on we were taken into a room at the end of the ward, I remember looking around for my mum but I couldn’t see her.

The next part I remember so clearly, one of the family friends took us into the room where my dad was. I remember my dads face, his eyes were red and puffy, he had clearly been crying a lot and he was shaking so much. There were two grey hospital sofas in this room. We all sat down and that’s when he told us that our mum wasn’t going to make it through the week and we needed to say our goodbyes.

The next few days were so hard. Mum had been moved into a more private room and the limit on visitors was lifted. She always had loads of people around her and I know she would have been happy knowing everyone was there. My mum wasn’t asleep or anything like that, she was paralysed but she could move her eyes. So she saw us all there with her.

My dad was there 24/7 and my sister and I would be there every day but would sleep at home. Then there was one day that the whole family was there and all her close friends. Mother’s day was coming up so my sister wanted to read her the mother’s day card that we had got for her. Everyone left the room giving myself, my sister and my mum some time alone.

I couldn’t tell you a word that was in that card. The entire time my sister was reading I was just staring at my mum. She was laying there still, her eyes open. Then I saw the corners on her mouth turn up slightly forming a little smile on her face. Soon after followed her tears. I wiped them away for her and grabbed hold of her hand. How had my mum got like this? It was heartbreaking.

We said goodnight to her like we did every night, told her we loved her and then we went home for the night.

The next morning I got up first and went down stairs, I saw all my family and family friends in the lounge, said Good Morning to them and then continued into the kitchen. I knew it then, I knew she had passed away.  I had lost my mum forever.

I didn’t need anyone to confirm it to me because the whole family sitting in my lounge crying was conformation enough but my aunt came out to see me and actually tell me. I didn’t really react. I just walked up stairs into my dads room, he was laying in bed sobbing, I have never seen anyone so heart-broken in all my life. I got in next to his and we just cuddled and cried. Someone must have gone and woken up my little sister because about 5 minutes later she ran through the door in hysterics. It was then that I realised I needed to be brave and try to get them both through this.

I was devastated don’t get me wrong but something clicked in me, it was just what I thought was right or possibly my way of coping and I just left the room went and got my self dressed and went to the Nursery where I was doing my work experience that day. When they found out what had happened they sent me home of course but I felt like I needed to get on with my day and not cry.

I will end that there but I will go on to what happened after with me in another post. I’m not writing this for sympathy of anything like that, I know im not the only person that has been through this. It’s simply something that I think about a lot and just wanted to write it down.

Thanks for reading and your ongoing support! 

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I’m Back!

Guys, I’m back! I’m sorry its been so long. I have been having a bit of a revamp on the layout. Do you like it?

So I’ve decided to bring back monthly favourites. It will start at the end of this month, which is super exciting I have loads of new bits that I want to share with you all.

Also I will be doing WCW also known as Woman Crush Wednesday, where each Wednesday I will pick a lady that I think is beautiful, inspirational or strong women. If you think there is someone that should be chosen then write a comment on their picture with #EforelleWCW!

Im not going to have set days that i post other than Wednesdays, simply because i have a job and sometimes find it hard to post by certain days. I promise that I will try my very hardest to get at least one post up a week for you.

Thanks for understanding guys!

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August GlossyBox Review

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Hello there! So I wanted to do an apology post because I’ve not been able to post in FOREVER! But I figured I would just keep it short and sweet and put it at the start of this GlossyBox Post.

Sometimes, no matter how much you try to dedicate yourself to your blog and your readers something in your life will get in the way. This is exactly what happened for me. The last blog post from myself was about a Job Promotion, well that went very wrong for me. I enjoy my job and I try to work my hardest all the time but sometimes things just get a little much and on this occasion it took its toll on my skin.

I suffer from eczema, I have done since birth but I have it under control, most of the time. This time though, stress took over and I ended up in a look of pain and the eczema targeted my hands and feet. For a very long time I was completely unable to walk. I demoted myself at work to try to help with my stress levels and I have been off work since MAY!

I thought about posting whilst I was off but I really had nothing to post about because I was in bed unable to move day in and day out.

BUT IM BACK!! and I don’t plan on going anywhere

So to start this blog back off I am going to give you and an August GlossyBox Mini Review…ish.

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For some unknown reason my August GlossyBox turned up on the 2nd September so this is a bit of a late review but never the less. So this month we were back to the classic pink box which I love! I keep al of my boxes under my bed, some I use for storage and others are empty but I also use them to put odd-shaped gifts in to make them easier to wrap.

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When I opened this box I was super excited to see two of the brands that I love, SASS and NAOBAY. There was also a product from a brand called MeMeMe which I haven’t got on with before and two new brands for me to try.

I though I would try the new products first as I kind of has an idea about the others already. So fist up is the Artist colour powder blush in the shade 108. This product was voted into the box by GlossyBox customers. It is a Blush/Bronzer hybrid from the Swedish brand Emite.

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I personally don’t like the colour. I am very pale and it is just too dark for me. That being said, the pigmentation is incredible and you don’t need a lot of product at all! This product is fantastic if you have a darker skin tone and it is perfect for contouring too. But because of the colour I had to pass this one on. (The photo is a little more red then the product, I tried to get it as true to colour as possible.)

Full size : £20.59

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The next product for me to try is a lash primer from the US brand Manna Kadar. The Glossybox description card says that it leaves your lashes ‘conditioned and voluminous’. Well, it doesn’t! I am not impressed with this product at all! I used it every night for a week and all it done was add a layer of product that was thick and dried very crusty on my eye lashes. I found that it was uncomfortable and I was constantly aware that it was on my lashes. It also says that it can be used under mascara for an ‘enhanced final effect’. I didn’t like it under mascara either, it made my mascara clump up. So over all I wasn’t impressed.

Full size: £14.55 

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Next I moved on the brand i didn’t get on with MeMeMe. This time I was trying a Lip glide in Playful Peach and it was PEACH!  The product is a matte-velvet chubby lip crayon and it has changed my mind on MeMeMe completely! I LOVE this product so much. It is super easy to apply and is so hydrating, the colour is very pigmented and lasts nearly all day. (I did have to touch up after food as normal.) This colour is super cute, I just wish GlossyBox had given it to us at the start of summer as it is the perfect summer shade! I will defiantly be purchasing more shades! Oh and one more thing, it’s such a great size that fits into your bag.

Full size: £6.95

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Moving on to the SASS Purifying Cleanser. This is an intimate wash that works as a probiotic to balance your skins PH levels. You use two pumps in the shower and rinsed with warm fresh water. I already use the Intimate Perfect Skin Concentrate which came in the May 2015 GlossyBox and I love it. So I was excited to use this wash. I have been using the Femfresh wash and it has been doing the job but the SASS Purifying Cleanser is out of this world. It is so gentle and soothing, there was no dryness after. It’s just such an amazing fresh product. I will be purchasing both the wash and concentrate again!

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Full size: £7 (BARGAIN!)

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Now for the final (and best) product in this box, the NAOBAY Calming Face Toner which is a Spanish 4 in 1 product. I LOVE LOVE LOVE this product! Lets start with the packaging, it is matte white with a wooden screw lid, so simple but so beautiful. It would look great on your vanity or on you bathroom shelf. I already have the Moisturising Peeling which gets rid of any artificial skin cells and daily impurities and now I have the Calming Face Toner to work along side it. You apply a few drops to a cotton pad and dab/softly wipe your face and it effectively removes traces of make up and impurities from the skin, cleanses, tones and soothe the skin with Chamomile and Asian Cantella.

I would love to repurchase this product but I’m not sure where from, if you know where I can purchase please leave me a comment.

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Full size: £10.65

*This blog isn’t sponsored all opinions are my own

**All brands are linked

If you wish to sponsor me feel free to contact me: Eleanorgreenslade@icloud.com


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OPI Hawaii

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This spring, OPI is celebrating the island state with a nail polish collection as colorful as the tropical paradise it represents. The twelve nail polish colours of OPI Hawaii include a variety of finishes and a rainbow of hues.

OPI nail polish is 3-free (Formaldehyde, Toluene, DBP) though it’s been brought to my attention that some colours contain Formaldehyde Resin, but not all. I was only allowed one sample and it didn’t come with an allergen label so I’m not sure which polishes contain Formaldehyde Resin, but it is okay for you to check the table in store.

OPI have always been creative with nail polish names and these names are no different, with names like, Pineapples have feelings too!, Suzi Shops & Island Hops and my favourite colour Thats Hula-rious!

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Thats Hula-rious! is the colour that I chose to test and this was the result,

OPI-Hawaii-event-mani-3It’s a beautiful solid mint shade and it makes everything feel a little bit more like summer.

Price – £11.95

Available now!

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Instagram Favorites

I follow a lot of Instagram accounts, some friends, some readers, but mostly beauty blogs. Everyday I see incredible make up skills and beautiful colours on my feed. I figured I would share some with you.

So, from this point onwards every Friday I will making a blog post on my Top 6 make up looks for that week. I will also link each look to the owners profile so you could have a look at their other looks and even try them for yourself.

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1 –  lora_arellano

2 – pal_foxxia

3 – alisakissooo

4 – doedeere

5 – xariamonroe

6 – limecrimemakeup (can also be found on doedeere’s profile)

Find my Instagram here

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I ordered a GlossyBox

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This is just a quick post to let you all know that I made the decision to subscribe to Glossybox. Sorry if I’m a little late on band wagon. For the readers who don’t know what a Glossybox is I will explain.

Glossybox is a company that you  can subscribe to on different plans. I chose the pay monthly subscription, which you pay for before you receive your box as that is best for me. It works out a little more expensive but I’m no good with bills so being able to pay for that month there and then works for me.

Inside the box will be 5 beauty items for you to try. They will select these items based on the information you give them when you sign up. The fact that you get to try out 5 different beauty items every month is pretty damn good for £10. Obviously you have to keep in mind when starting a subscription that there may be some products that you have already used or even some that you don’t really like, This is the kind of risk that you have to take. If I don’t like the idea of something or if I already have given it a go I was considering doing a little giveaway. What do you guys think on that?

The website said that my box will be with me within 4 working days, which to be fair is pretty quick considering I’ve only just told them the beauty products I normal go for and the fact they haven’t even packed the box yet.

Glossybox isn’t the only company to do this, there are loads if you have a look around. I picked this one because, to me, it seemed the best. I will link Glossy box and some other companies that also do beauty subscriptions below.

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Below are the links to some Beaty Box sites. Enjoy! 

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Love Lula Beauty Box

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Latest in Beauty

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Too much lush?

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Right, I kind of feel like this post is a bit soon but that it is also needed. This is a kind of ‘sorry for the overload of lush’ post.

I am aware that the only posts that I have published so far are reviewing Lush products. I am sorry for this, i promise that there will be more variety in each of my posts. I do love Lush products, a lot. I probably know a bit too much about their products but this isn’t a Lush review blog, so it will be changing and improving.

I guess as I’m a new ‘blogger’ I am still trying to find my way and figure out what is worth blogging/reviewing. The next post I can promise will be something different. So, WATCH THIS SPACE!

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